Tuesday, November 25, 2008

All for nothing

If you haven't read up on my next fitness adventure, I'd suggest skipping this post and reading that one first. It will make a little more sense.

Having said that, today made no sense whatsoever.

I had worked myself up all weekend. Even though I had a busy weekend, I still found time to fret about officiating. I was worried and anxious and nervous, and that was all with plenty of time left before the big day.

Today, the big day, I had nowhere to hide. It was time to do it, time to go hit the soccer field and delve into this three-month roller coaster that was certain to follow me. Although today was supposed to have been a junior varsity girls scrimmage I was prepared for the worst. As I walked to the soccer field and watched the team train, I studied the field and thought that the place would not seem as calm in 30 minutes as it did right then and there.

"Oh, the game as rescheduled."

What? You've got to be kidding.

"No, the athletic directors agreed a couple of months ago that they wanted to play the game on Monday."

Great. I had gotten myself all worked up, all prepared to take this first giant step forward, for this? For a JV girls coach to tell me that it was all for nothing? Apparently. That's how my life goes sometimes, curve ball after curve ball.

So now my first game will be in live action, a varsity girls soccer game. No time to warm up. No time to fine-tune anything. It'll be straight into the lion's den for me. Fast-paced action will greet me. I just need to make sure that the only person who knows that will be my first game is the other official. Because I really do want to enjoy this.

Hopefully, today's setback will be the most glaring setback I'll face anytime soon.


Lissaloo said...

That's hard! No more stressing though, you will be great! :)

Pamela said...

Oh my gosh! I would have been so full of mixed emotions. Be confident in your skills LB! You can do it! :)